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Day 2 of my unemployment....it was nice to get to spend an entire weekend with my husband, even if I didn't quite feel like myself. I guess I never realized how much my job (not particularly this last one, but a job in general) anchors me. I just feel like I am free falling and have no idea if there is a net at the bottom to break my fall. So while I am so relieved to be out of that job and away from the whole situation, I feel lost knowing that tomorrow is Monday and I will still be sitting here while the rest of the world heads off to work. It is totally my plan to make finding a job my new full time job but it is not the same and doesn't earn a paycheck. And the nagging question that keeps popping into my head is: How will I afford purses now???!!!! That is such a scary thought. I mean screw bills, what about a new bag for spring???!!!
My job is usually my sanity and what keeps me occupied for at least 8 hours a day. I am not a great housekeeper as I am more motivated for online shopping (well, any type of shopping really) than to do the dishes, I don't do yard work as that is something I'd rather pay somebody to do (actually I feel that same way about housework) and I would rather buy new clothes than wash the ones I currently own. I know that all sounds ridiculous and shallow but I have always been that way and you either love me or hate me. I really was destined to be a wealthy princess but obviously there was some mix up at the hospital when I was born since I have never been wealthy and my family never bent to my demands to be referred to only as Princess Jenn. In other words supreme laziness when it comes to chores and my desire for power shopping at every waking moment (I do see it as a competitive sport) are not helpful so besides being a necessity for just being able to have a middle class life, having a job is what also helps me just do something/anything productive. If I have a place I have to be, I will be there and ready to do the bidding of some upper management figure but without that (or an endless supply of money), I will just sit on the couch and watch my ass grow.
So starting tomorrow all my focus will be on getting a job. And while my ass may grow in this process (since a lot of it will take place on this sofa, with this laptop), I know that it will all lead to something that will save me from myself and provide me with stability and a paycheck once more. My job is usually my sanity and what keeps me occupied for at least 8 hours a day. I am not a great housekeeper as I am more motivated for online shopping (well, any type of shopping really) than to do the dishes, I don't do yard work as that is something I'd rather pay somebody to do (actually I feel that same way about housework) and I would rather buy new clothes than wash the ones I currently own. I know that all sounds ridiculous and shallow but I have always been that way and you either love me or hate me. I really was destined to be a wealthy princess but obviously there was some mix up at the hospital when I was born since I have never been wealthy and my family never bent to my demands to be referred to only as Princess Jenn. In other words supreme laziness when it comes to chores and my desire for power shopping at every waking moment (I do see it as a competitive sport) are not helpful so besides being a necessity for just being able to have a middle class life, having a job is what also helps me just do something/anything productive. If I have a place I have to be, I will be there and ready to do the bidding of some upper management figure but without that (or an endless supply of money), I will just sit on the couch and watch my ass grow.
And then that purse I have my eye on will be mine!
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